random, but i’m feeling contemplative and would like to say thanks to everyone who has stuck it out, waiting for me when i may not necessarily deserve it. i’ve been doing this thing where i keep promising to return, and then just disappear all over again. my activity and overall presence has been sparse. i want all my friends and writing partners to know that i have truly appreciated and noticed each of you and your patience. i keep feeling like i don’t have the time to be here, to do bruce proper justice. i’ve considered archiving…deleting…picking up a character who is less complex. one that requires less dedication. but see, i can’t. i cannot let go of bruce banner. i can’t acquire another muse because, quite simply, i do not have one. no one, fictional or real, gives me the voice that banner does. there is no other character who will ever speak to me like this guy… not a single one out there that lights a fire in me like bruce banner. not even close. and though i want so badly to move on at some points, i just don’t know how. and i guess i’m sorta happy about that. because i love mcu bruce banner with every fiber of my being, and i’m so excited for what is to come for him. okay. i don’t know why i’m saying this. i just want you all to know that i’m here, and that i will always be here. even if i slip away for a moment too long. even if i’m busy. bruce and i are around. we’re quiet and seemingly aloof, but here. so don’t worry, because that’s not ever gonna change.