wintersspectre-a-blog
asked:
“my mind is a dark place. you don’t want to be there.” ( hello!! )

 HURT MEME   //   @wintersspectre​

observe,   analyze.     calculate.     the   methodical   /   THERAPEUTIC   process   by   which   the   doctor   formulates   his   most   cardinal   hypothesis.     but   information   is   so   seemingly   limited   on   the   ghost   of   a   man,   the   figure   of   EXHAUSTION   that   currently   resides   across   from   him.     the   one   they   call   bucky,   though   bruce   knows   only   that   he   is   a   soldier…     that   he    is   noticeably   prone   to   a   familiar   solemn   restraint   in   group   settings…     &&     that   he   is   of   great   IMPORTANCE   to   rogers.

he’s   also   acutely   aware   that   they   share   a   common   denominator.     so   debilitating   on   the   brain,   the   external   facade;     even   now.     they   are   INCENDIARY   grenades,   timed   devices   always   in   standby   mode,   encompassed   by    a   wave   of   casualties,   sitting   ducks.   in   short,   they   are   weapons.     &&   the    label,   POIGNANT   aspersions   that   neither   will   ever   be   able   to   entirely   disallow.   (   not    in    this    life.   )   the   damnation   of   duplicity,   real   life   reincarnations   of   dr.   jekyll   and   mr.   hyde…

except   their   alter-egos   are   not   at   all   representatives   of   FICTION.     not   another   tale   to   disturb.   no,   theirs   is   a   sinking,   maddening   lack   of   control,   a   loss   of   agency.     a   vile   desperation,   demented,   entrenched   within   the   vein.     VESSELS   thick   with   determination,   pitted   against   the   sleepless   struggle,   a   force   that   cannot   be   defied.     sense   of   perception   mutilated,   pulled   in   opposing   directions,   NEVER   entirely   ridding   of   one   or   the   other.     maddening,   indeed.     the   uncertainty.     the   desire   to   elude   oneself,   the   crippling   fear   of   actions   that   have   yet   to   be committed.     actions   that   will   be   committed,   in   due   time.   by   them.

chase   the   nightmare’s   end   to   no   avail.     the   CREATURE   has   snuffed   out   every   remaining   particle,   any   glimmer   of   light   that   might   have   dwelled   prior.     (   he   guarantees   he   has   witnessed   darker.   )

                                                                                                       ❝   TRY   me,   kid.     ❞